I have a busy brain. This is not a good thing.
I don't mean busy in the sense that it sensibly and productively runs around getting things done. I mean busy in the sense of thrashing around randomly. Usually worrying about things, sometimes pleasantly planning things, but always busy busy busy.
The times when my brain is at peace are rare. Rare enough that I have, for example, a very clear memory of the time that I was watching a James Bond movie and my brain, inexplicably and uncharacteristically, just shut up and let me watch the thing. It wasn't running alternative plots. It wasn't thinking about the last movie I saw or the next one I was going to see. It wasn't worrying about whether I'd gotten popcorn butter on my shirt. It wasn't thinking about work. I just watched. the. movie.
It was a fascinating experience. It was over a year ago and it hasn't happened since.
That is, the experience of being entirely healthy and intelligent and still having a peaceful brain hasn't happened. I do find that when I'm sick, my brain does seem to quiet down, but then I wouldn't call it peaceful, I would call it stupid. It reaches out little thought tentacles, then collapses with an exhausted, "Oh, never mind." But it never stays collapsed.
It is, all the same, a bit more relaxing. I mention this because I feel as if I'm catching a cold, and my brain is looking around, sleepy-eyed, prodding halfheartedly at things. It's pleasantly restful.
That is all.
Love the image of your brain poking out little thought tentacles and collapsing exhausted! I need mine to do that, for it is similarly wired and whirring at all times. I call it 'bursting brain syndrome'. My sleep is also a blur of chaotic dreams. I blame the cortisol sloshing around my middle aged system - it's well documented. ;)
ReplyDeleteYo, Vanessa! Yes, it's annoying, isn't it? Does this mean that your brain didn't whir quite so much in the past?
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